"That's impossible" - No It's not.

Morning, I know I haven't blogged in a few days and that's because I haven't had much to talk about so there would be no point in boring your brains to a point in which you will no longer want to read these blogs anymore..so yeah.

The picture resembles a normal sighting it my house because baby's things are simply everywhere, It's not that I hate it either because really I think It's nice to have younger siblings around you. Sometimes you don't think that as they tug at your hair and dribble on your best clothes, but hey, their kids, they don't know any better.

Yesterday was a pretty crazy day as it was the Year 11 Thorpe Park Trip. Despite the three hour queuing for SAW - The ride and then only to be turned away, the day was pretty good. I reluctantly got into the seat on Stealth and faced my fear of heights only after having a nervous breakdown. But It's all good, I did it didn't I? And that's all that matters :)

I didn't really come here to talk about my day so I will get straight to the point of this blog. The other day I was watching a programme called "James May trip to the moon" or something along those lines I can't quite remember. Anywho, during the programme I suddenly became inspired and motivated by what happened. May travelled thirteen miles up through the sky and I was amazed by beautiful view from there. You could see the curve of the Earth and the meeting of space and the sky. It was tremendous. One of my dreams would be able to witness such an event but however unlikely it is I still hold on to this dream. I believe that the "impossible is nothing" and even though it is a Adidas slogan it still makes perfect sense to me and it should do to everyone. It means that you can do whatever you want with no restrictions and it gives hope to every person in the world. What is impossible anyway? It was not long ago that people considered flying impossible. Yet today we regularly fly 100-ton aircraft full of 200 people or more. So what changed? I think you should think like a magician. Once you know how the quality trick is done then you will realize that the impossible is just an illusion. The real issue is getting others to see the impossible as an illusion or how the trick is done in order to see past the illusion. Now, I'm not saying that all of you are going to become astronauts and fly to the moon and make substantial discoveries but I do believe that every single one of you will be able to take part in one of their most precious dreams or wants.

It's easy..all you have to do is believe.

On that note I will leave you to this beautiful summer's day. I'm going to watch Wimbledon later because my two friends are up there and I will be trying to catch a glimpse of them :)

Take care :)

Sun, Sea, Stones and Sick.

Okay, so the title does not sound very advertising to read but don't worry you will not be disappointed by this rather lengthy blog, well I hope it turns out to be quite long. I haven't blogged in 82748 god knows how many hours, hang on with the aid of my onscreen calculator I can actually tell you how many hours it approximately has been...80. Okay, so now as much as I initially though but it's a pretty long time to be away from blogging.

The picture that I have chosen for todays blog was taken by my friend Matt on Friday. Equipped with sunscream and towels, Matt, Tom and I strolled to the beach and had quite a fun filled day, and that's where the majority of the title comes from. During the day we pretty much kicked back and enjoyed the gorgeous weather (for once). Summer is officially starting now and I can now actually feel it. I have around three months to do absolutely nothing and I believe that it's bloody fantastic. Anyways, back to Friday.. Well I met my friend Tom Foster for the first time and he turned out to be a brilliant guy, bar a few remarks which were made throughout the day but all in all I'm glad I have met him and now I have a new friend, lovely. One of his marvellous ideas during the day was to send a message in a bottle out to sea, and I have always thought about doing this even as a little kid, but I had never actually put it into action, so I guess this was my time to shine. We wrote the note and threw it out to sea...I wonder where it is right now. Is it in France? Did it get crushed by a boat? Has somebody found it? Who knows. But it is quite an interesting topic actually, well for me it is.. I don't know abou you. Anyways I did a little research on it and I found this little story..On a sudden whim, Maureen Sharp scrawled her name and address on a piece of paper, pushed it into the bottle and threw it into the North Sea. It washed up two years later and 500 miles away on the beach at Neuharlingersiel in Wittmund, Germany, where it was spotted by a teenage girl on her holidays. Carefully uncorking the bottle, Dagmar Wendler pulled out the piece of card inside and read the message: "Please write to me." It was to be the beginning of an incredible 53-year friendship between the two women, who have exchanged hundred of letters and photographs but who only recently met up, face to face...How cute is that! So throwing a bottle into the sea isn't always a waste of time.. especially not in that case anyways :)

So theres Friday done, now onto Saturday.
Saturday was Lydd Club Day and for any of you who doesn't know what it is, look it up. Anyways last year's Lydd Club Day was pretty amazing excluding a few events but I thoroughly enjoyed myself and the year passed by so quickly that yesterday was the beginning of another hecktic and noisy night for Lydd. I turned up a little early with some friends and we pranced around for a bit until they finally let us in. The bumper cars were first hit by us as we sped around getting hit by the owner of the ride. A long with bumping into the other riders of course :) We then went on Bounce! which was a ride that randomly drops you.. it's hard to explain but anywho, we had a jolly old time on that as well, before the night was up I went on that ride a further two times. All in all the night was amazing and I left around 22:10 as my parents wanted to stick around for more fun and watch the fireworks which we could easily see from my home anyways. But nevertheless it was beautiful and it was a great end to a fantastic day...roll on next year baby!

It's father's day today and I have just finished making my daddy's card. I drew a little eagle onto it as it's his favourite animal but my lack of artist skills makes it look more like a pancake and I'm not entirely sure why, but hey ho. I will dedicate this blog to my dad who is currently taking part in an one hundred mile cycling race and I wish him the very best of luck, although he doesn't really need it, he will beat them anyways..fingers crossed though :)

So now I will leave you all to have fun and share time with your daddies. Take care everybody and Happy Father's Day!

:)

Inspiration is in short supply..

Finally after having limited transport for three days we now have a brand new car. Don't ask me what type it is because I'm not the sharpest knife in the draw when it comes to cars and car manufacturers. But It's a car? What else do you need to know.

Right this second it is 08:35am and you're probably wondering why I'm up so early..well to be truthful I've only had 1 hour and 24 minutes sleep due to my agonising stomach ache and ending up throwing up which made me feel better so I think I just had something a little nasty in my tummy. Anyways, let's not linger on that point, eh? I'm not sure that would go down well with your breakfast. I'm still laying in bed because all my stomach is pretty sore and I'm not entirely sure why but I do know that when I move it hurts so that leaves me bedridden for the next few hours.

As I write this post I am listening to the song Far Away by Nickelback. I don't usually write blogs whilst having background music but I tend to start singing along as opposed to writing this but this morning for some reason I'm not and all my attention is focused on this piece. Anyways, this song brings back a lot of memories, some are good and some are bad but I'll never forget any of them, even if I want to, they are forever imprinted in my mind. I'm sure that you have a song that brings everything back to you and I think It's quite amazing how it happens, how can one song just make memories come flooding back to you? I'll let you think into that because I'm too lazy to look it up right now. Maybe tonight, who knows?

My lack of inspiration is causing this blog to become quite boring however I would like to discuss the following topic with you; time machines. Now, at first read it sound amazing and who would turn down the chance of being able to revisit your most beloved memories or on the other hand try to change the ones that went considerable wrong. But then again, once changed you will never have the same life again. If one aspect if your life is changed, no matter how small it will make a difference to your future..But anyways, I thought about the essential moments in life in which I would adore to travel back to if I was to ever come across a time machine..
1) I would love to have been present at the birth of Lord Jesus, just squeeze me in between the donkeys and the three wise men.
2) I would also love to have been in the prehistoric times with the dinosaurs. I know there would be a high percentage change that I would be eaten but it would be cool wouldn't it?
3) Visiting parents as children and teenagers. I would want to see what they were like and see if they have the same aspects in which I have today, would be quite interesting.
4) Finally I would visit all the memories which made me smile, laugh and enjoy.. I would just like to experience them, one more time.

So yeah, there's my list. I'm not sure about you but that's how I would spend the time with a time machine, so anybody who has one or is thinking about making one, send it my way when you can please ;)

08:52am and the kids are now at school, hallelujah. I'm still in bed and trying my best not to think about the pains undergoing in my stomach. This blog seems to be distracting me though so all is good...Yesterday I didn't do a great amount until around half two where I decided to go meet my friend, Connor in New Romney. It turned out to be a great day until of course he managed to push me into the sea, although I do accept half the blame because my intentions before I got wet was to push him in.. so, I just what goes around comes back right around to you. Anyways, after that my feet were all wet and made probably the worst sound whilst I plodded up the Avenue. Connor made the mistake of shouting "Have you stopped squelching yet?" and as he turned he noticed a pretty shocked and overweight man coming out of a shop..oh dear. So yesterday did turn out to be pretty good and the weather was nice as well..speaking of which looking outside now it seems like it is shaping up to be a nice day as well..shame I have nothing to do with it.

Well, I may write another blog tonight if I do something progressive during today but I doubt I will so don't get your hopes up.

Have a good Wednesday everybody! :)

You 'gotta have faith...

Je crois que dans la foi, l'espérance et l'amour. If you don't understand that it means "I believe in faith and love". I don't know why I did it in french but I thought it would give my blog that little bit of culture which it needed, ha! I don't know why I really took the photograph above but I felt a sudden urge too and so I acted upon it. Often, people talk about faith as a feeling, a feeling of certainty, and for many, that's how it is. But it helps me to believe that faith can start with a choice, and that the feeling may follow at some time, more or less as a gift. "Faith" and "certainty" are opposite terms in my mind and usually a person will either believe one or the other. I myself believe in faith. Faith allows for hope and continuance whereas certainty is only what is proven right...

Well I'm not sure if you believe in any of that sorta stuff but there you go, that was my little "theme of the blog" for today. It's 10:10am and I'm not even tired, maybe that's because I didn't sleep that much last night.. ironic huh? It seems evident to me that when I sleep less I am less tired and need less sleep but i don't understand why..strange. Anyways, I watched a really good film last night on Channel One called "Like Minds" at first I thought it was very boring but as the film dragged onwards I started to become more and more gripped with it. The film itself was a thriller/horror and it really kept me on the edge of my..well bed. So I recommend it to anybody who wants to watch a good thriller sometime even though it only has three stars, but don't let that bother you in the slightest, it's a very good film :)

Today I really want to venture over to the wind turbines near Camber because they would be beautiful to photograph but once again my parents have gone out and left me to tend to a sick eleven year old, brilliant. I know she's my sister but there are some restrictions okay, ha ha. But when my parents get home i will definitely jump on a bus and go to those wind turbines :)

(update: I just got a really sweet text off my best friend Jasmin and she has really given me a good start to the day, so thank you Jazz)

I'm going to write another blog tonight so for now I will leave you in peace. I hope you all have progressive days and to anybody doing an exam, good luck :)

Toodle pip :)

A tree is just a tree..but not this one.

As I've already written a blog today this one won't be specifically big but I just wanted to share a little something with you all. The picture of above is a picture of a tree, obviously..but not just any old tree. It has meaning to me. The picture itself is quite bad quality compared to the picture that I took in the previous blog but that's because this photograph was shot from a mile of it because when I walked there this afternoon I forgot to take my camera so when I got home, completely worn out I was not going to venture out to it again, I may do tomorrow, to get a better picture of it, but for now just use your imagination okay? Anyways, this piece of nature has a lot of meaning to me. When I was five years old my dad use to take me out to this tree, it's so peaceful and tranquil out there and no one can disturb you. My daddy use to put me in the tree and tell me to close my eyes and wish for whatever I wanted in the world. I did as I was told, and although those dreams didn't come true I for some reason still believe they will. My dad stopped taking me as I grew older, but I still go up there sometimes just to close my eyes and think for a little bit and that's what I did this evening..

I hope you sleep well.

Night Night,

x

I faced my biggest phobia taking this...

By the way if you were wondering what my phobia was, It's bees. They were swarming all around this plant but I was determined to get the shot because every blog from now on will have a little picture at the top of it, It's instead of a quote to begin my post. So.. that is my favourite plant in my garden, It's really beautiful and delicate despite the attraction of bees in which it brings, ha!

*Yawn* Okay, now I'm awake.
It's 10:19am here and I'm sitting outside on my trampoline. The weather isn't exactly brilliant but I would be lying to you if I said that it was terrible. So somewhere in the middle I guess. As the summer months starts to set in I'm beginning to feel more and more positive about this summer break. I'm really looking forward to the endless days on the beach equipped with suncream and a great group of friends. It sounds marvellous doesn't it? ;)


Well, lately in each of my blogs I have brought up a theme.."theme of the blog" if you like. Today I wasn't sure what I was going to put as usually I write it down on my phone and then refer back to it when I come to writing my post, but today I went to look at my phone and I didn't have a theme written down so I guess I'll have to improvise won't I?


Well last night at approximately 11:23pm I finished my "book of the week" and I really recommend it to people that liked the film or the book " P.s I love you" It's written by the same author and has the same style and tension within it. It's ending was perfect, to say the very least and throughout the whole novel it had me in tears of laughter and also of sadness. She plays on our heart strings and has everything that a good novel needs. So please do give it a read will you. In the book it talks about how two people know each other even though they have never met, they both experience deja vu which makes them both desperate to find each other. My fellow blogger Will mentioned in his previous blog about soul mates, and I think this along with other areas of the book is what Cecilia Ahern was trying to portray. A degree of my mind does believe in soul mates whilst the other challenges it with the theory that we have to make a relationship work and try to find that special someone. I think that there are probably a few thousand people you could be compatible with, and only a few hundred you could really connect with. Soul mate, though? Someone who's perfect for you, in every single way possible? I don't think such a person exists. And even if that person does exist, it would impossible to find him/her. But then again what do I know? If you do believe in soul mates I think it's perfectly acceptable because who wouldn't want to believe that their one true love is out there, just waiting for them. But me, I don't think it's really all that truthful. As people say, I'll believe it, when I see it...

By the way I thought the picture above was really beautiful and so I thought it would link in with what I talked about earlier in my blog.
That's another thing I want over summer now you mention it. I want to fall in love. I know that is a very cliche thing to say but I do. I'm pretty tired of being single it's been around four months now and although I am loving being able to spend quality time with friends, I do want that special someone in my life again. But hey, If not, I'm not going to cry about it. I'm not that particularly bothered but it would be nice.. and who wouldn't want that eh?


My parents just left for Maidstone leaving me home alone once again. They seem to be doing this a lot now, and I'm not complaining but I do kind of miss them sometimes.. ha! They also did the same activity yesterday leaving me home alone once again. I got a text from a friends questioning whether I was in or not, and so I replied yes. To my surprise within 25 minutes my friends Chris Cooper, James Goss and Jasmin Lee all had turned up at my house. We had a laugh like we always do and took part in some pretty funny happenings. I won't bore you with the details or anything but what I will say is, do not get into a rowing boat with me, you will regret it :)

Well... I am running out of things to say right now, and if I don't stop now I'm going to continue babbling and spill out a load of rhubarb..not literally don't worry. So now I will leave you all to the joy of Monday mornings..

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

~ Walter Winchell

This is me... And now this is the back of me. Toodles!

I wish..

These words hardly ever end with something definite, something solid with only one answer. There must be many times in a day when we say I wish, or I hope something that we want happens. But when it comes to wishing for real, I have found it hard to ask for something I wanted. For when i believe that my wish will come true, I fear to wish for something that might not be fulfilled proving my belief wrong. So most of my wishes are abstract such as a wish for a good or successful life which never has one definite outcome. I believe that we hardly wish for something that we really want because what we want is a different thing from a wish. Wishes may not come true yet we believe in them and we do wish, whenever we can. Whenever we see a shooting star, although it has a scientific explanation, we make a wish. Even if it does not come true, we just justify it in our mind and make another wish the next time. Or when there is an eyelash on your face (Which I do many times), you make a wish, no matter how small or how big and you don’t even remember about it in the next moment, but when there is a chance to make a wish,you instantly grasp it. Even when we see a dandelion we pick it up and blow on it, although we know that there is a small possibility of those minuet pieces of the flower to be able to carry out wish somewhere where it's needed or listened too. Some of you in desperate times will wish for those three wishes from the Genie, but then again you are wishing for something that you do not believe in. As much as we don’t believe in wishes, we will never stop wishing. And we shouldn’t. Maybe someone’s listening. (never give up hope, eh?)



Wishes , wishes.. there are so many. and how I wish they all came true.


Okie dokie, that's the theme for this day's blog done. Now I'll talk to you a little about my day..well seeing as it's 08:46am, yesterday's day :) As you already know I went to the library which actually turned out quite successfully and I got four books. Two by Harlan Coben, one by Alice Sebold and then another in which my friend advised me about which is called "Thanks for the memories" by Cecelia Ahern (The author that wrote P.s I love you). She is a beautiful and witty writer and I'm glad I picked up this book, I'm already on chapter seven and I'm loving every minute of reading it, so if you ever get a chance to have a look at one of her books or any of the other authors I've mentioned then please do :) Anyways, after the library I got on a bus home which felt very much like De ja vu as I had only just got off the bus to go into town. Many people would say that travelling 19 miles for around half an hour in Folkestone is pointless but I think otherwise. If I hadn't of gone out I would have just been sitting around all day. And that would have been pointless...Yeah, after I got off at my stop I had to walk two miles to get home, the scenery around the area is which I live is beautiful, If you're interested, below is a photograph of the area nearmy local church ;)

Okay, so it's not the most exciting picture in the world but that's a little view from the path in which I walk home on, it usually looks better if the sun is brighter but hey, there you go :) Oh! Another thing in which I want to carry out during the summer is making a big portfolio of all my photography, as I am hopefully taking it next year this will help me when it comes to studying it and progressing in the subject. So I'll update you on those pictures throughout the summer and no doubt I'll probably process them up on here and then you can tell me what you think.

I'm not really feeling any deep emotions right now to be very honest with you, but what I can tell you is that I am really happy, I'm not entirely sure why but something in my life is making me happy and I will find out what it is sometime and then I shall report back to you, but for now I'm going to make the most out of this feeling. I may blog again tonight but then again no promises...

"It is love that makes the impossible possible."
~ Indian Proverb

Pip pip :)

Rise and shine..

We read that we ought to forgive our enemies; but we do not read that we ought to forgive our friends ~ Sir Francis Bacon.

It's 08:32am and this has got to be my earliest blog so far, but as I mentioned previously in my last blog my ideas seem to flow better when I'm well rested, so I guess this would be the best time to start. The quote that I used today really got me thinking. I chose to share it with you for two reasons. The first was because it does tell a truth in which I have pondered over for a while. We do read that we should forgive our enemies but should be do the same with friends, I guess that's up to you to decide really isn't it? The second reason I chose this was because the guy that wrote it had a laughable name, in which I hope you all looked at after this sentence. So forgiveness? Throughout my life I have forgiven a great deal of people but then again I have probably been forgiven by twice that amount. Okay, so I'm not the most innocent girl in the world and I've done lots of things that maybe I should have thought about more carefully. But what really helped me through was the forgiveness and understanding of my friends. They gave me their forgiveness and I feverishly took it, mainly without thinking and so I didn't really appreciate the extent of it. Until now. Forgiveness takes a lot of power and understanding and you should not just give it out here and there, you should give it to those who have earnt it not those who will just break the trust and do the same deed a few days later.

“Forgive us for the wrong things that we do. Other people do wrong things to us. But we know that we also must forgive those wrong things.
Forgive people when they do wrong things to you. If you forgive them, your Father in heaven will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive them, your Father will not forgive you.” ~ Matthew 6:12 and Matthew 6:14-15

Now, I'm not saying you should believe in everything the bible says. I, myself am not a full believer of God. But in some ways I think that it is worth believing in. Having a heaven there to look forward to is beautiful, who wouldn't want that? So I guess I believe in such things as more of a comfort feeling and a sense of belonging.

So I hoped that broadened your horizons a little bit there. My day, well I can't say much about today's events because at 08:44am I haven't done a huge amount to be honest with you. Right now, I'm laying in bed with my trusty laptop letting all my feelings and emotions run free onto the keyboard :) Yesterday did not amount to a great deal either but what I did accomplish was five hours of reading. The book is called Deal-Breaker by Harlan Coben (He by far is my favourite author, along with Alice Hoffman so they are both worth checking out). If I had to sum up the story in one sentence it would be that it is a heart felt romantic novel filled with sex and murder. Maybe it's not your sort of thing, but it doesn't sound as bad as I have portrayed it to be. Coben along with his other books makes it quite comical even though most of his stories do shape a murder or kidnap of some sort. Well anyways, I love reading his books and today I'm going to pop to the library in Folkestone and collect some more of his stories, I'm hoping that "Tell No-one" will be there.

This post may be pretty lengthy, well I'm hoping it's going to become that way anyways. Now I'm going to talk to you about a little dream I have. Whether it happens is very doubtful but what's the harm in dreaming eh? ..Well as I was browsing the net, I found some beautiful photography by a man named William Baer. He is a very detailed and amazing photographer, his photographs are mainly nature and such but what he does is simply inspiring. I came across this photograph below:


Now some of you probably don't think much of it, but I think that it is a very beautiful scene and a moment in which I would have wanted to witness. So anyways, my dream..well I guess my dream is to sail around the world, even though I do have some degree of being scared of the water, but I guess we can jump that hurdle when it comes to it. But yeah, sailing the world does jump out at me as being a once in a lifetime thing to do. Along with that I would take photographs of all the different places in which I had visited and make an album of it all. My dream however futile it may be is something in which I have wanted to do for a couple of years now, so wish me lucky everyone ;)

This blogging business is becoming quite popular lately and this is very good news. I enjoy reading peoples blogs and at the moment I am following quite a bunch of people. The blogs in which I mostly read is Will Sharps and Elliot Thornton-Smiths. They are both very good friends of mine and also amazing writers, so if you do have the chance then please take a look at their work because believe me you won't be disappointed.

I'm going to hop in the shower now and start to get ready to brave the streets of Folkestone in hope that I will get my hands on that book. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much I enjoyed writing this.

Tallyho chum! x

Why so serious?

Evening everyone :)
Well I had a pretty hectic day actually. More than I expected to happen in my mind anyways when I drew back the covers on my bed this morning. I toddled down the stairs only to be greeted by all my family gone from the house and a measly notice on a pink sticky note tapped to the fridge saying "Good luck". It then clicked into my mind that I actually had a History exam that afternoon..had I revised? Not really, no. Brilliant. Within seconds I dashed back up the stairs and onto my desk chair to pummel some dates into my head that I would hopefully remember during the examination. My short-term memory didn't help the situation as I stumbled out the door luckily remembering my black pen for those all important A* answers of mine; or so I hoped.

The exam went surprisingly well and what's more, it was my last GCSE that I will have to ever take..besides maybe a re-take of Business. But that doesn't count. I'm free! So as I left the doors of the Folkestone School For Girls I was greeted by my best friend Jasmin and my friend Chris. I got into Chris' car and we sped off to pick up friend number three, James or Goss as he likes to be known. It turned out to be a pretty wacky few hours actually, we ended up at Samphire Hoe in Dover and we had fun dossing around the place taking some appropriate photos where necessary. But none of us expected what was yet to come...

[Here I'd like to thank James for taking the photographs in which we needed and also I would like to thank Chris for taking us about the place in his car.]

As the lights turned red at the traffic lights in New Romney I glanced behind my only to be faced with a man dressed as the Joker, at first I was pretty petrified but with a second look I realised that all of us in the car had our eyes focused on him. Jasmin decided she wanted a photo with him and forced me to write a sign saying "Pull over! Photo?". As James held the sign up I did feel very doubtful as to him agreeing but to my dismay we saw a small nod and we pulled over. He drove past but signalled to us either to "Stay there, I'll turn round" or "Come further up and stop". We hesitated but decided to go with the first one, we of course were wrong and we sat there disappointed that we missed our chance for a great photo opportunity. But then, to our amazement we saw his car speeding off in the distance in front of us. We sped off after him hoping to catch another glimpse of this man and get this photograph in which Jasmin and I desperately wanted. We chased him three/four miles. But it was no use. He was gone.

You know, all I do on this blog is really tell you a little story about my day and I'm pretty sure it gets a little boring sometimes, am I right? I don't know, maybe next post I will think of a certain topic that has come up recently and then talk about it for a little while. Also I’ve noticed a direct correlation between how rested I am and my writing quality. When I’m well-rested, ideas flow all over the place. Or sometimes I just need a break (In fact, I’m going to take a walk right after this post. It’s a beautiful day!)

Right now, I'm not feeling any deep emotions or anything depressing flowing through my mind, instead I can smell the sweet smell off freshly baked chips just coming out of the oven, so I'll quickly finish this little beauty off shall I?

"If you can DREAM it, you can DO it"

~ Walt Disney

I think that quote is very much true and it was written by one of my most idolised men. So there's a little food for thought for you all. Speaking off food, I'm off to eat those chips of mine, they could be getting cold ;)

Y'all come back now won't you..

Time will only tell..

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.
~ Unknown"

I thought the quote above was really beautiful and so I thought I would share it with all of you, my fellow bloggers. I hope it filled you with a bit of inspiration. And now for something perhaps a little sad, and could make you feel a bit edgy but I have to get it off my chest, and that's what this blog is for...so, Trust is a key to friendship. It's a key that opens the door of all laughter and happiness and through that door is where all your memories and secrets are stored, for life.

Well at least that's how it's meant to be isn't it? Sometimes I wonder. Last night, I got my promises broken, destroyed and smashed. I don't understand what I did to deserve it but I know it wasn't right for it to happen. The decision was theirs to make, and they made it. Nothing I can say or do can change what they have done now and to be honest if they were that kind of person last night, they were always that type of person and so I wouldn't want to be there friend now even if they got on there knees crawling back to me. I just have to move on..

Isn't the summer weather fabulous?
If you didn't pick that up as sarcasm then, you obviously haven't taken a look out of the window lately. Delightful huh? What is it with rain during these early summer days. This is the third occasion that I have arrived home dripping from head to foot. It's meant to be summer, I'm meant to be gaining a sun tan, but by the look of this weather I doubt that will be happening any time soon. But on the up side of things I finish my last exam tomorrow, eep! Which is a huge relief as I do not believe I would be able to make it through many more. The silence is deafening. I used that line during my English writing examination. Bit of an oxymoron there ;D But it also applies to all exams. Maybe it's just me but when I'm in a room filled with silence my head ticks over things that are around and about in my mind at that moment in time. Which ironically is enough to give me a headache, perfect. But today, luckily I didn't have to experience that really because I completed by exam within the time set and only had around ten minutes to kick back and relax before the invidulators snatched my exam paper away. I think I did pretty well, but my prediction may be wrong as I may in fact look at my results and see a big resounding F on the page, but hey, what's the harm in positive thinking.

Well above is pretty much my day, that's all I did. Which is pretty sad really. This is what is getting me thinking about what is going to happen in the summer when I don't have the occupying hours of school. I know I'll just turn up for sixth form next September probably huge because that's what I chose to fill the time with, eating.

As I now lie here on my bed I look up at the pictures around my walls and I begin to remember the times in which I have had during these last 4-5 years. They have been amazing. I feel like when I leave school I will loose all this. I know I'm already going back for sixth form, but it's not going to be the same. I will not experience the same things as I did during my years of 7-11 and I am really going to miss them. I really hope that I don't loose touch with any of my closest friends because that will just tear me up. Doing this blog and reading others keeps me in contact with those I am already falling away from. It helps me understand what is going on in their life but also I know how they are feeling and such. So if you are reading this, make sure you do keep blogging because I do enjoy reading them :)

Well, I'm feeling pretty tired now actually and this blog has been quite depressing so for that I apologise but I'm sure I'll be writing another one of these beauties soon and for your benefit I'll make sure it's a happy one ;) All the things I have shared with you today may not even happen so I guess time will only tell...

Sleep tight now :) x

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Afternoon everyone. I decided that I will blog everyday for the rest of this month because I seem to feel that I have been a bit distant from my blog and that I owe it to myself, so here goes..

Okay, so today wasn't the best of days to be totally honest with you, but I would be lying by telling you that it was awful. On a positive note I think I have finally decided what I want in life and I discovered this throughout the two hours of my Business Studies examination...

Picture this; fourth desk down, fifth seat from the right, everyone around you patiently awaiting their exam papers with eager eyes. Me fidgeting around in my chair, economies of scale and current assets ticking away in my mind. F6 was doomed from the start as I tried helplessly to answer the first question of the booklet. To my astonishment I actually finished however I completed it within the hour, which meant I was left with roughly an hour to ponder over things I mentioned previously in my past blogs. I won't linger on this for much longer and I shall continue telling you my story of my gripping day shall I? So following the exam I climbed aboard Cross keys and journeyed home only to be met with a down pore of water falling heavily on my head. Oh great, just what I needed for my walk home, rain. But hey, on the bright side at least I wasn't starving hungry...oh wait, yes I was. And here I am writing this blog as I brave the weather using my phone. I couldn't wait till I got home to write this because for once my head was brimming with ideas and so I decided to let them over flow into my trusty mobile and not let my short term memory disperse these ideas before I got home.

Also it has come to my attention that you, my fellow bloggers, have been using inspirational and quite motivating quotes to start your blogs or end them. I decided to give this a shot and so that's what I have done with this blog, and shall do for this entire summer month, aren't you lucky? ;)

(for any of you who care, I am now home wrapped up in a dressing gown and I am not facing the terrible weather that lays outside my window)

For now, I think that's all I have to offer for you guys, but I'll be sure to catch up with you as soon as something tremendous comes into view. Take care and keep on blogging!

Son, if you really want something in this life, you have to work for it. Now quiet! They're about to announce the lottery numbers!
- Homer Simpson

"Heads up" ... or maybe not.

So here's the thing, I haven't really blogged in a while and I felt compelled to; along with the strong encouragement from Will. So here you go my lovelies..

I opened my eyes at around 7:30am this morning. When I looked out my window it seemed a pretty beautiful start to the day, so with that I pulled on a summer outfit and headed downstairs to grab some breakfast. My lack of sleep from the previous night did not make getting breakfast an easy task. So as I stumbled around the kitchen my mother queried about my outfit and informed me of the weather forecast for later. Nevertheless I just ignored what she said and strolled out the door to catch the bus. Not only was I running late but my shoes started to hurt my feet which just added to the struggle of the two mile walk. Calling a friend was a big mistake as he forced me to run a further mile to enable me to board the bus in which i was initially going to get. To my disappointment I missed it and by doing this I decided to catch the next bus into Folkestone, the 102.

So, I guess this is getting a little boring for you, so let's skip a few hours, shall we? Football. Okay, so not my strongest sport, and that's an understatement. My lack of enthusiasm to the game doesn't really help either. So here's the setting; The leas, around ten guys, one girl and a football. Now it would be any girls dream to be surrounded by lots of guys, but not in this context. Males are neither sympathetic or kind when a football is present. A few comments from the lads put me in a pretty bad mood, but as the day moved on I started to get into the game...sort of, ha. I say got into it, I was more of a moving target really, centred around the middle of the pitch. But as the day moved swiftly onwards I did start to enjoy the feel of the sport. So, thank you for a great day boys.

Cor, I'm going to be honest with you now. I've given you a run down of my day pretty much and now I'll speak to you for a little bit about what's actually going on in my head. So right now, I'm feeling tired, cold and lonely. I'm being stretched between writing this blog and conversations on MSN. It's a little distracting and due to my lack of motivation this blog will probably turn out to be one of my worst, but hey, I promised Will I would so I guess this will have to do for now. So anyways, where was I.. Oh yes, well on my walk home in the rain this evening I started to reminisce for a little while. Maybe that's why I didn't really notice the car coming from the other direction and straight through a puddle conveniently placed next to me to enable the car to completely soak me in water from head to foot. But any who, my head seems a little confused right now. I hate the feeling of being alone, and I'm sure many people will agree with me here. But there just seems to be something missing from my life, and I realise there is. My love life has gone down the drain in the last few months and I don't really understand why. People come and go, but that's all they have ever seemed to do, none stay and maybe it's due to there being something off putting about me, but as people say " theres plenty more fish in the sea" So I guess I'll just have to wait and see what arises won't I?

Tom Foster. I said I'd give him a little mention as he is probably the one person now actually delving into this blog and reading it, and he's only doing that due to a certain someone forcing him. But he's my newly acquired friend in which I have shared some great web cam memories with. Finger moustaches love, ha ha. So hi Tom!

My fellow bloggers I can't really find the words to keep this blog going because there is a definite downhill occurrence happening throughout the time I have spent with the blogging community...

I may blog tomorrow if I am feeling up to the task and I would really like too, so you may be hearing from me again soon. Hopefully my head will be sorted out to some extent by then.

you've been a wonderful audience...