Inspiration is in short supply..

Finally after having limited transport for three days we now have a brand new car. Don't ask me what type it is because I'm not the sharpest knife in the draw when it comes to cars and car manufacturers. But It's a car? What else do you need to know.

Right this second it is 08:35am and you're probably wondering why I'm up so early..well to be truthful I've only had 1 hour and 24 minutes sleep due to my agonising stomach ache and ending up throwing up which made me feel better so I think I just had something a little nasty in my tummy. Anyways, let's not linger on that point, eh? I'm not sure that would go down well with your breakfast. I'm still laying in bed because all my stomach is pretty sore and I'm not entirely sure why but I do know that when I move it hurts so that leaves me bedridden for the next few hours.

As I write this post I am listening to the song Far Away by Nickelback. I don't usually write blogs whilst having background music but I tend to start singing along as opposed to writing this but this morning for some reason I'm not and all my attention is focused on this piece. Anyways, this song brings back a lot of memories, some are good and some are bad but I'll never forget any of them, even if I want to, they are forever imprinted in my mind. I'm sure that you have a song that brings everything back to you and I think It's quite amazing how it happens, how can one song just make memories come flooding back to you? I'll let you think into that because I'm too lazy to look it up right now. Maybe tonight, who knows?

My lack of inspiration is causing this blog to become quite boring however I would like to discuss the following topic with you; time machines. Now, at first read it sound amazing and who would turn down the chance of being able to revisit your most beloved memories or on the other hand try to change the ones that went considerable wrong. But then again, once changed you will never have the same life again. If one aspect if your life is changed, no matter how small it will make a difference to your future..But anyways, I thought about the essential moments in life in which I would adore to travel back to if I was to ever come across a time machine..
1) I would love to have been present at the birth of Lord Jesus, just squeeze me in between the donkeys and the three wise men.
2) I would also love to have been in the prehistoric times with the dinosaurs. I know there would be a high percentage change that I would be eaten but it would be cool wouldn't it?
3) Visiting parents as children and teenagers. I would want to see what they were like and see if they have the same aspects in which I have today, would be quite interesting.
4) Finally I would visit all the memories which made me smile, laugh and enjoy.. I would just like to experience them, one more time.

So yeah, there's my list. I'm not sure about you but that's how I would spend the time with a time machine, so anybody who has one or is thinking about making one, send it my way when you can please ;)

08:52am and the kids are now at school, hallelujah. I'm still in bed and trying my best not to think about the pains undergoing in my stomach. This blog seems to be distracting me though so all is good...Yesterday I didn't do a great amount until around half two where I decided to go meet my friend, Connor in New Romney. It turned out to be a great day until of course he managed to push me into the sea, although I do accept half the blame because my intentions before I got wet was to push him in.. so, I just what goes around comes back right around to you. Anyways, after that my feet were all wet and made probably the worst sound whilst I plodded up the Avenue. Connor made the mistake of shouting "Have you stopped squelching yet?" and as he turned he noticed a pretty shocked and overweight man coming out of a shop..oh dear. So yesterday did turn out to be pretty good and the weather was nice as well..speaking of which looking outside now it seems like it is shaping up to be a nice day as well..shame I have nothing to do with it.

Well, I may write another blog tonight if I do something progressive during today but I doubt I will so don't get your hopes up.

Have a good Wednesday everybody! :)

You 'gotta have faith...

Je crois que dans la foi, l'espérance et l'amour. If you don't understand that it means "I believe in faith and love". I don't know why I did it in french but I thought it would give my blog that little bit of culture which it needed, ha! I don't know why I really took the photograph above but I felt a sudden urge too and so I acted upon it. Often, people talk about faith as a feeling, a feeling of certainty, and for many, that's how it is. But it helps me to believe that faith can start with a choice, and that the feeling may follow at some time, more or less as a gift. "Faith" and "certainty" are opposite terms in my mind and usually a person will either believe one or the other. I myself believe in faith. Faith allows for hope and continuance whereas certainty is only what is proven right...

Well I'm not sure if you believe in any of that sorta stuff but there you go, that was my little "theme of the blog" for today. It's 10:10am and I'm not even tired, maybe that's because I didn't sleep that much last night.. ironic huh? It seems evident to me that when I sleep less I am less tired and need less sleep but i don't understand why..strange. Anyways, I watched a really good film last night on Channel One called "Like Minds" at first I thought it was very boring but as the film dragged onwards I started to become more and more gripped with it. The film itself was a thriller/horror and it really kept me on the edge of my..well bed. So I recommend it to anybody who wants to watch a good thriller sometime even though it only has three stars, but don't let that bother you in the slightest, it's a very good film :)

Today I really want to venture over to the wind turbines near Camber because they would be beautiful to photograph but once again my parents have gone out and left me to tend to a sick eleven year old, brilliant. I know she's my sister but there are some restrictions okay, ha ha. But when my parents get home i will definitely jump on a bus and go to those wind turbines :)

(update: I just got a really sweet text off my best friend Jasmin and she has really given me a good start to the day, so thank you Jazz)

I'm going to write another blog tonight so for now I will leave you in peace. I hope you all have progressive days and to anybody doing an exam, good luck :)

Toodle pip :)

A tree is just a tree..but not this one.

As I've already written a blog today this one won't be specifically big but I just wanted to share a little something with you all. The picture of above is a picture of a tree, obviously..but not just any old tree. It has meaning to me. The picture itself is quite bad quality compared to the picture that I took in the previous blog but that's because this photograph was shot from a mile of it because when I walked there this afternoon I forgot to take my camera so when I got home, completely worn out I was not going to venture out to it again, I may do tomorrow, to get a better picture of it, but for now just use your imagination okay? Anyways, this piece of nature has a lot of meaning to me. When I was five years old my dad use to take me out to this tree, it's so peaceful and tranquil out there and no one can disturb you. My daddy use to put me in the tree and tell me to close my eyes and wish for whatever I wanted in the world. I did as I was told, and although those dreams didn't come true I for some reason still believe they will. My dad stopped taking me as I grew older, but I still go up there sometimes just to close my eyes and think for a little bit and that's what I did this evening..

I hope you sleep well.

Night Night,

x

I faced my biggest phobia taking this...

By the way if you were wondering what my phobia was, It's bees. They were swarming all around this plant but I was determined to get the shot because every blog from now on will have a little picture at the top of it, It's instead of a quote to begin my post. So.. that is my favourite plant in my garden, It's really beautiful and delicate despite the attraction of bees in which it brings, ha!

*Yawn* Okay, now I'm awake.
It's 10:19am here and I'm sitting outside on my trampoline. The weather isn't exactly brilliant but I would be lying to you if I said that it was terrible. So somewhere in the middle I guess. As the summer months starts to set in I'm beginning to feel more and more positive about this summer break. I'm really looking forward to the endless days on the beach equipped with suncream and a great group of friends. It sounds marvellous doesn't it? ;)


Well, lately in each of my blogs I have brought up a theme.."theme of the blog" if you like. Today I wasn't sure what I was going to put as usually I write it down on my phone and then refer back to it when I come to writing my post, but today I went to look at my phone and I didn't have a theme written down so I guess I'll have to improvise won't I?


Well last night at approximately 11:23pm I finished my "book of the week" and I really recommend it to people that liked the film or the book " P.s I love you" It's written by the same author and has the same style and tension within it. It's ending was perfect, to say the very least and throughout the whole novel it had me in tears of laughter and also of sadness. She plays on our heart strings and has everything that a good novel needs. So please do give it a read will you. In the book it talks about how two people know each other even though they have never met, they both experience deja vu which makes them both desperate to find each other. My fellow blogger Will mentioned in his previous blog about soul mates, and I think this along with other areas of the book is what Cecilia Ahern was trying to portray. A degree of my mind does believe in soul mates whilst the other challenges it with the theory that we have to make a relationship work and try to find that special someone. I think that there are probably a few thousand people you could be compatible with, and only a few hundred you could really connect with. Soul mate, though? Someone who's perfect for you, in every single way possible? I don't think such a person exists. And even if that person does exist, it would impossible to find him/her. But then again what do I know? If you do believe in soul mates I think it's perfectly acceptable because who wouldn't want to believe that their one true love is out there, just waiting for them. But me, I don't think it's really all that truthful. As people say, I'll believe it, when I see it...

By the way I thought the picture above was really beautiful and so I thought it would link in with what I talked about earlier in my blog.
That's another thing I want over summer now you mention it. I want to fall in love. I know that is a very cliche thing to say but I do. I'm pretty tired of being single it's been around four months now and although I am loving being able to spend quality time with friends, I do want that special someone in my life again. But hey, If not, I'm not going to cry about it. I'm not that particularly bothered but it would be nice.. and who wouldn't want that eh?


My parents just left for Maidstone leaving me home alone once again. They seem to be doing this a lot now, and I'm not complaining but I do kind of miss them sometimes.. ha! They also did the same activity yesterday leaving me home alone once again. I got a text from a friends questioning whether I was in or not, and so I replied yes. To my surprise within 25 minutes my friends Chris Cooper, James Goss and Jasmin Lee all had turned up at my house. We had a laugh like we always do and took part in some pretty funny happenings. I won't bore you with the details or anything but what I will say is, do not get into a rowing boat with me, you will regret it :)

Well... I am running out of things to say right now, and if I don't stop now I'm going to continue babbling and spill out a load of rhubarb..not literally don't worry. So now I will leave you all to the joy of Monday mornings..

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

~ Walter Winchell

This is me... And now this is the back of me. Toodles!

I wish..

These words hardly ever end with something definite, something solid with only one answer. There must be many times in a day when we say I wish, or I hope something that we want happens. But when it comes to wishing for real, I have found it hard to ask for something I wanted. For when i believe that my wish will come true, I fear to wish for something that might not be fulfilled proving my belief wrong. So most of my wishes are abstract such as a wish for a good or successful life which never has one definite outcome. I believe that we hardly wish for something that we really want because what we want is a different thing from a wish. Wishes may not come true yet we believe in them and we do wish, whenever we can. Whenever we see a shooting star, although it has a scientific explanation, we make a wish. Even if it does not come true, we just justify it in our mind and make another wish the next time. Or when there is an eyelash on your face (Which I do many times), you make a wish, no matter how small or how big and you don’t even remember about it in the next moment, but when there is a chance to make a wish,you instantly grasp it. Even when we see a dandelion we pick it up and blow on it, although we know that there is a small possibility of those minuet pieces of the flower to be able to carry out wish somewhere where it's needed or listened too. Some of you in desperate times will wish for those three wishes from the Genie, but then again you are wishing for something that you do not believe in. As much as we don’t believe in wishes, we will never stop wishing. And we shouldn’t. Maybe someone’s listening. (never give up hope, eh?)



Wishes , wishes.. there are so many. and how I wish they all came true.


Okie dokie, that's the theme for this day's blog done. Now I'll talk to you a little about my day..well seeing as it's 08:46am, yesterday's day :) As you already know I went to the library which actually turned out quite successfully and I got four books. Two by Harlan Coben, one by Alice Sebold and then another in which my friend advised me about which is called "Thanks for the memories" by Cecelia Ahern (The author that wrote P.s I love you). She is a beautiful and witty writer and I'm glad I picked up this book, I'm already on chapter seven and I'm loving every minute of reading it, so if you ever get a chance to have a look at one of her books or any of the other authors I've mentioned then please do :) Anyways, after the library I got on a bus home which felt very much like De ja vu as I had only just got off the bus to go into town. Many people would say that travelling 19 miles for around half an hour in Folkestone is pointless but I think otherwise. If I hadn't of gone out I would have just been sitting around all day. And that would have been pointless...Yeah, after I got off at my stop I had to walk two miles to get home, the scenery around the area is which I live is beautiful, If you're interested, below is a photograph of the area nearmy local church ;)

Okay, so it's not the most exciting picture in the world but that's a little view from the path in which I walk home on, it usually looks better if the sun is brighter but hey, there you go :) Oh! Another thing in which I want to carry out during the summer is making a big portfolio of all my photography, as I am hopefully taking it next year this will help me when it comes to studying it and progressing in the subject. So I'll update you on those pictures throughout the summer and no doubt I'll probably process them up on here and then you can tell me what you think.

I'm not really feeling any deep emotions right now to be very honest with you, but what I can tell you is that I am really happy, I'm not entirely sure why but something in my life is making me happy and I will find out what it is sometime and then I shall report back to you, but for now I'm going to make the most out of this feeling. I may blog again tonight but then again no promises...

"It is love that makes the impossible possible."
~ Indian Proverb

Pip pip :)

Rise and shine..

We read that we ought to forgive our enemies; but we do not read that we ought to forgive our friends ~ Sir Francis Bacon.

It's 08:32am and this has got to be my earliest blog so far, but as I mentioned previously in my last blog my ideas seem to flow better when I'm well rested, so I guess this would be the best time to start. The quote that I used today really got me thinking. I chose to share it with you for two reasons. The first was because it does tell a truth in which I have pondered over for a while. We do read that we should forgive our enemies but should be do the same with friends, I guess that's up to you to decide really isn't it? The second reason I chose this was because the guy that wrote it had a laughable name, in which I hope you all looked at after this sentence. So forgiveness? Throughout my life I have forgiven a great deal of people but then again I have probably been forgiven by twice that amount. Okay, so I'm not the most innocent girl in the world and I've done lots of things that maybe I should have thought about more carefully. But what really helped me through was the forgiveness and understanding of my friends. They gave me their forgiveness and I feverishly took it, mainly without thinking and so I didn't really appreciate the extent of it. Until now. Forgiveness takes a lot of power and understanding and you should not just give it out here and there, you should give it to those who have earnt it not those who will just break the trust and do the same deed a few days later.

“Forgive us for the wrong things that we do. Other people do wrong things to us. But we know that we also must forgive those wrong things.
Forgive people when they do wrong things to you. If you forgive them, your Father in heaven will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive them, your Father will not forgive you.” ~ Matthew 6:12 and Matthew 6:14-15

Now, I'm not saying you should believe in everything the bible says. I, myself am not a full believer of God. But in some ways I think that it is worth believing in. Having a heaven there to look forward to is beautiful, who wouldn't want that? So I guess I believe in such things as more of a comfort feeling and a sense of belonging.

So I hoped that broadened your horizons a little bit there. My day, well I can't say much about today's events because at 08:44am I haven't done a huge amount to be honest with you. Right now, I'm laying in bed with my trusty laptop letting all my feelings and emotions run free onto the keyboard :) Yesterday did not amount to a great deal either but what I did accomplish was five hours of reading. The book is called Deal-Breaker by Harlan Coben (He by far is my favourite author, along with Alice Hoffman so they are both worth checking out). If I had to sum up the story in one sentence it would be that it is a heart felt romantic novel filled with sex and murder. Maybe it's not your sort of thing, but it doesn't sound as bad as I have portrayed it to be. Coben along with his other books makes it quite comical even though most of his stories do shape a murder or kidnap of some sort. Well anyways, I love reading his books and today I'm going to pop to the library in Folkestone and collect some more of his stories, I'm hoping that "Tell No-one" will be there.

This post may be pretty lengthy, well I'm hoping it's going to become that way anyways. Now I'm going to talk to you about a little dream I have. Whether it happens is very doubtful but what's the harm in dreaming eh? ..Well as I was browsing the net, I found some beautiful photography by a man named William Baer. He is a very detailed and amazing photographer, his photographs are mainly nature and such but what he does is simply inspiring. I came across this photograph below:


Now some of you probably don't think much of it, but I think that it is a very beautiful scene and a moment in which I would have wanted to witness. So anyways, my dream..well I guess my dream is to sail around the world, even though I do have some degree of being scared of the water, but I guess we can jump that hurdle when it comes to it. But yeah, sailing the world does jump out at me as being a once in a lifetime thing to do. Along with that I would take photographs of all the different places in which I had visited and make an album of it all. My dream however futile it may be is something in which I have wanted to do for a couple of years now, so wish me lucky everyone ;)

This blogging business is becoming quite popular lately and this is very good news. I enjoy reading peoples blogs and at the moment I am following quite a bunch of people. The blogs in which I mostly read is Will Sharps and Elliot Thornton-Smiths. They are both very good friends of mine and also amazing writers, so if you do have the chance then please take a look at their work because believe me you won't be disappointed.

I'm going to hop in the shower now and start to get ready to brave the streets of Folkestone in hope that I will get my hands on that book. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much I enjoyed writing this.

Tallyho chum! x